I will not give in

Shattered!

Shattered!

2013 is only 49 days old, yet I feel like I’ve been tested over and over.

First my heart breaks, I had to say goodbye to a friend.

Then my thumb got busted.

Then my other thumb got busted too in a hot glue-gun accident.

Then a Ganglion cyst.

Then yesterday, my laptop fell and the screen was shattered. It fell on the jump drive sticking out of it and that broke too.

SERIOUSLY?!

I started throwing the pity party I so sorely wanted. I mean what the EFF right?! Tears evermore for all the information on both devices that I wasn’t sure could be recovered. And for all the things that seemed to be going wrong. It’s like every time I got my head above water…some undercurrent of negativity tried to pull me under.

This year has been a completely unpredictable series of twists and sometimes unfortunate turns of fate. And I will not allow myself a moment more of self-pity. I am grateful for the “new opportunities” all these twists and turns have brought into my life. I will see things as they really are and I will let go of the expectation that things are always supposed to go a certain way. I will be honest with myself always.

The world did not end when I my laptop fell. So I will suck it up and be open to new circumstances when things don’t go the way I expect.

Negativity will not win.

I will not be discouraged. I will not give in to despair. I will learn the lessons and I will move forward always.

Broken.

Broken.

Thumbs heal. Laptop screens can be replaced – at a cost, but it can be replaced. I was able to recover all the information except one file (which I can live without) on my jump drive. Ganglion cysts can be busted. I will continue to love and my heart will be healed.

I CAN do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me!

I will continue to write.

I will continue to LOVE.

…and I will back-up all my information on a couple extra jump drives for safe-keeping.

Quote me

I am a quote junkie. I collect them. I print them and put them in places I can see them every day so that they can inspire me all the time.

Today’s Daily Prompt: Quote me is an opportunity to share with you a new favourite of mine.

Do you remember when you were a kid and could not wait to grow up? You longed to be a whole hand, then a teenager…finally 18 and then you got to 21 and realised…wait I don’t “feel” any different?!

It hits you somewhere around this time in your life that “growing up” really has little to do with age!

Photo by: V Superville

Photo by: V Superville

When I first saw this quote it resonated with me because I am at a stage in my life where I am growing and stretching and evolving and it’s SCARY!

It is scary to let go of the past, to move beyond familiar things and to identify and change behaviours that no longer align with the me I want to be.

I like being reminded that living takes courage.

Living out loud, takes a hell of a lot of courage.

Becoming the “me”…or rather evolving into the me
that I was created to be…takes courage.

I like knowing that I have that courage.