BBQ: This too shall pass

***Spoiler Alert: This is a BAH HUMBUG kinda post***

Christmas Eve 2010…while I was liming with my sister and a couple close friends I had a major epiphany: There was absolutely NOTHING I felt I had to rush home to bake, clean, hang or wrap. There was nothing I had to do on Christmas Eve except what I was doing at the moment. It was effing depressing. I miss my mother.

Christmas was her time of the year. Cooking, cleaning, family, singing…or paranging as we say in Trinidad…that was ALL her. I realized that day that as I got older, Christmas was about making her happy. When she died, my Christmas spirit pretty much went with her.

Don’t get me wrong, I spend time with my sister and brother and their spouses and my extended family as well and I smile and I act happy…but this is a lonely time for me. I miss my mother. And nothing is the same without her. I thought this year might have been different and we would have a child with us to celebrate and shower with all things Christmas but God had other plans for that too. May they both rest in peace.

Yep…this is shaping up to be another so-so Christmas and I’ll drink some ponche de creme (eggnog for some of you) and smile and go through the motions.

Today’s BBQ comes from Terri Cole’s post on The Daily Love which you can read here. She sums up the Christmas blues perfectly. So I will sip my ponche de creme and go through the motions this season and I will do so while I smile through my blues and trust that by New Year’s Eve I will be feeling all kinds of better.

You can read more from founder of The Daily Love, Mastin Kipp and the other awesome TDL contributors here . Terri Cole is an inspiration and you can read more from her here as well.

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