Five Minute Friday: Write

Writing is like wrapping yourself up in words and giving yourself away. – Lisa-Jo Baker

I’m linking up again this week with Lisa-Jo Baker and the other lovely writers of Five Minute Friday. Click on the button below for more details on what this challenge is all about and how you can participate.

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Why do I write?

I’ve been asking myself this question for some time. On my blog I walk a line of “how much is too far”? Do I leave it all on the blog or do I need to find a clear purpose for why I started blogging in the first place and let that dictate how much I say here?

How much do I really say, how personal can I get without compromising myself and the people around me. Then my thoughts scare me more times than I like to admit. Do I really want anyone reading this someday and thinking damn she really was bat shit crazy…?

I think I have 2 major fears when it comes to what I write:

The first one being that when all is written and read…I cannot write well. Even though this is something I’ve wanted to do since I was a child.

The second being, I leave so much of me here that people think they know everything there is to know about me which is weird because when I write, I cannot hide the real me. And don’t I want people to know who I really am?

I write because I am an emotional cutter.

I write because I want to be comfortable in my skin.

I write because despite getting ‘E’ for talkative on pretty much ALL of my school reports as a child, I still can’t manage
to communicate how I really feel about the shitty things that happen in my life.

I write because I’m a bit of a narcissist.

I write because I really believe with all my heart that Love is the only currency we have and it should be our sole reason for the exchange of our time but there are too few of us who understand this and they choose to eff this thing up called Love. Every. Single. Time.

I write because I need to.

STOP