I love birthdays. And I especially love my birthday!
I used to expound on how this day in history is waaay too special for just one day, often beginning the celebrations from the 15th of July and continuing until the 15th of August. Yes a whole month. And yes I obviously take myself waaay too seriously as well.
Yet since 2010, I dread making plans. My brother asked me on Sunday what I wanted to do today, and I replied that all I knew is that I wanted to attend Mass, because I don’t like planning anything – he said that’s what lonely people say.
I suppose there is some truth in that for lonely some people.
In my defense, the plan was to be in Tuscany, as I dreamed about here. When that didn’t work out, I tried to secure tickets to St. Marten…but that didn’t work out either. (See why I don’t like making a birthday plan?) But I still maintain my “No Working on my Birthday” rule.
So since I have the day to myself, no office, emails, queries or follow-ups and definitely no Facebook, here is my new plan, which is not a plan, because I really only want to be happy today…however it turns out. I will most likely be awake at midnight, so I will take a moment to say a prayer of thanksgiving. I plan to attend Mass first thing in the morning. Hopefully, that will mean being able to watch the sun rise as well. I want to eat some of my favourite things…so there will be breakfast at one of my favourite places. Then maybe a massage and lunch. There will most definitely be Tiramisu. After that…the plan is to keep it simple.
My birthday post 2010 is always tinged with sadness, mummy died eight days after and even though my sister and brother usually make time for me today and when we get together I feel like she is with us, it doesn’t make it easier. But still I smile, because I have 3? reasons to!
By the end of the day, I hope to have had a moment to reflect on last year and all I have to be grateful for now in this moment.
This is has been my anthem for the last 7 months and I suppose for a long time to come. I hope you listen and enjoy. Happy New Year to me. Life and blogging is ever-evolving. Here’s to a life of simplicity, contentment and Love.
Cheers to an awesome year ahead…cuz “ah come out to live meh life…I’m the happiest gyal alive”!
Hey there! Stopping by from FMF, and so glad you linked up! Happy birthday, belatedly! So glad you got to spend your day with friends and food! 😉 It was my birthday on Tuesday, and the highlight was a Chinese and sushi buffet with my sister. Food and friends is the best way to go. 🙂
Also, wanted to extend my sympathies in the loss of your mother. It will be three years for me in September since my mom died, and the pain just doesn’t go away, does it? I get what you mean about it casting a shadow over your birthday, as well, as I had to leave my mom in the States four days after my birthday to go back to South Africa, and she died six weeks later. I still associate that last birthday with her as both happy and so, so sad.
Praying that the Lord would grant you sufficient grace to endure the ongoing trial of grief.
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Thank you for stopping by Kate. I am happily surprised that you did. Happy Belated Birthday to you!!! Food and Friends are the very best way to go.
My sympathies to you as well. I cannot imagine what you must have felt having to leave her. Thank you for the prayers and I will remember you in mine, because grief is not easy. I always say, who feels it knows it. It does not go away. We just learn how to cope with it.