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Weekly Photo Challenge: Inside

Inside.


Before & After

There must be a few times in life when you stand at a precipice of a decision. When you know there will forever be a Before and an After…I knew there would be no turning back if I designated this moment as my own Prime Meridian from which everything else would be measured. ― Justina Chen, North of Beautiful

BEFORE:

Carnival 2013

Photo credit: Jason Tang

I am a Carnival junkie. There is glitter in meh blood. There are no words to describe the feeling I have when I am in full costume on the road, just enjoying the music and the sun. But I think the photo above captures my bliss beautifully. For the uninitiated, this is a sample of what Trinidad Carnival looks like.

Saying I LOVE CARNIVAL is putting it mildly.

And yet I quit the festivities this year. I chose to have a mini vacation instead of glitter, sunburn and soca.

And guess what?

Life went on. People had mad fun in Trinidad.

And MOST importantly I had fun right where I was.

I was at peace and so present to the little moments on my vacation, that there was no time for regrets.

I am glad I chose something different for myself this year.

Because now I know that I can and I will be just fine.

AFTER:

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Good Morning Sunshine!

When you feel life at crossroads, you need higher perspective view. ― Toba Beta, My Ancestor Was an Ancient Astronaut

Choice is a beautiful thing isn’t it?

Five Minute Friday: Small

5-minute-friday-1I’m linking up again this week with Lisa-Jo Baker and the other lovely writers of Five Minute Friday.

Click on the button to the right for more details on what this challenge is all about and how you can participate.

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This past weekend, I had to keep reminding myself not to compare my start to someone else’s middle. My sister and I have started a business together and we are small fish in a big pond. And I found myself comparing our product to that of more established businesses. Thing is our product is good and in some cases even better than some of the bigger fish.

But it was so easy to get caught up in comparing and second guessing and wondering and then ultimately worrying about being good enough. Without considering what it took for the bigger fish to get where they are at today.

And the rub when you start comparing yourself negatively to others is that you deny yourself the journey of your own growth.

STOP

FMF

Weekly Photo Challenge: Selfie

Challenge accepted!

Five Minute Friday: Write

Writing is like wrapping yourself up in words and giving yourself away. – Lisa-Jo Baker

I’m linking up again this week with Lisa-Jo Baker and the other lovely writers of Five Minute Friday. Click on the button below for more details on what this challenge is all about and how you can participate.

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Why do I write?

I’ve been asking myself this question for some time. On my blog I walk a line of “how much is too far”? Do I leave it all on the blog or do I need to find a clear purpose for why I started blogging in the first place and let that dictate how much I say here?

How much do I really say, how personal can I get without compromising myself and the people around me. Then my thoughts scare me more times than I like to admit. Do I really want anyone reading this someday and thinking damn she really was bat shit crazy…?

I think I have 2 major fears when it comes to what I write:

The first one being that when all is written and read…I cannot write well. Even though this is something I’ve wanted to do since I was a child.

The second being, I leave so much of me here that people think they know everything there is to know about me which is weird because when I write, I cannot hide the real me. And don’t I want people to know who I really am?

I write because I am an emotional cutter.

I write because I want to be comfortable in my skin.

I write because despite getting ‘E’ for talkative on pretty much ALL of my school reports as a child, I still can’t manage
to communicate how I really feel about the shitty things that happen in my life.

I write because I’m a bit of a narcissist.

I write because I really believe with all my heart that Love is the only currency we have and it should be our sole reason for the exchange of our time but there are too few of us who understand this and they choose to eff this thing up called Love. Every. Single. Time.

I write because I need to.

STOP